Her Last Words - Courtney Parker



*** I HAVE A NEW CHANNEL! *** This is a new gaming channel with my boyfriend! Check us out! WATCH US LIVE! - Twitch: http://www.twitch.tv/FinkerMash Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/FinkerMash Instagram: @FinkerMash Twitter: https://twitter.com/FinkerMash Snapchat: FinkerMash Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/courtney.m.parker Twitter: https://twitter.com/courtneypark3r Instagram: courtneymayparker Snapchat: courtneymay96 A while ago I wrote my own lyrics to the song "Perfect Couple" by Fozzy and Van C, I spent a really long time on perfecting them and didn't want them to go to waste so I recorded this, I originally spoke it but then realised singing it sounded slightly better. I know I'm not a good singer at all and the point of uploading this was not to show off my voice or anything like that, I might get made fun of for making this, I just didn't want to waste something I spent so long writing. So, I hope at least a few people enjoy this as it's taken me a lot of courage to upload. Music: Atmosphere - The Last To Say (Instrumental) ***LYRICS*** Just an average girl She always wore a smile She was cheerful and happy for a short while Now she's older, things are getting colder Life's not what she though, she wishes someone had told her She told you she was down, you let it slip by So from then on she kept it on the inside She told herself she was alright But she was telling white lies Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves 'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed She had no friends at school, all alone she sat And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate Things were going down, never really up And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut She knew exactly what she had to do next Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild "Look at me now, are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame It was the world that should bow down it's head in shame She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon Just don't think, it'll all be over soon The chair fell down as she took her final breath It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death Her Mum walks in, she falls down to the floor And now nothing can take back what she just saw The little girl that she raised is just hanging there Her body's pale and her face is violently bare She sees the note and unfolds it with care All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face "I'm sorry Mum but this world is just not my place I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in I've come to realise this world's full of sin There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race It's a disgrace, I was misplaced Born in the wrong time, and in the wrong place It's okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon As it shines bright, throughout the night And remember everyone's facing their own fight But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter So let the world know, that I died in vein Because the world around me, is the one to blame And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone 'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on That's what they use to tell me, all those kids at school So I'm going by the law majority rules My presence on this earth is not needed any longer And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger You're the best friend, that I ever had Such a shame I had to make you so very sad But just remember that you meant everything to me And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight I'm watching over you, from the clouds above And sending down the purest and whitest dove To watch over you, and be my helpful eye So this is it world, goodbye."

Comments

  1. I'm on the bus going home and I listened to this, I'm so close to tears right now. Such a powerful song...
  2. I cried for 20 minutes :(
  3. this song has made me realize that maybe suicide is the only way out...
  4. This world is just not my place
  5. people can be horrible. They hurt others without even a slight second thought . but there are good people. people do care regardless of how you may feel. I haven't cut in 4 years and I haven't attempted suicide in 3 years . and I never will again. I got close. I almost died. and I regretted it. I wanted to get rid of my pain but I was just giving it to someone else. there is a answer and it's not suicide . everyone regrets it. everyone
  6. Thoughts are wild tonight, living this life unheard and in a silent world is taking its toll. I feel like I should leave this song behind :(
  7. for all of you saying that it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem

    If you had a temporary problem with your roof leaking that'll end as soon as the rain stops, you'd still look for a permanent solution, right? That way it won't happen again?
  8. If you're reading this, I want you to know that I love you. I care. I would be so, so upset if you ended your life. You are beautiful just the way you are. You have made a huge, huge impact on this world. Please, don't cut tonight. Do it for me. How would you feel if your 8 year old self saw you cutting? Or your little brother/sister? I'm just an average girl behind this screen, but I know how hard this is. Stay strong and keep fighting, I love you all ☺️❤x
  9. can't find it on Spotify ;(((
  10. I actually attempted suicide the other day. I was having issues with people..and I was sick of being so ignored and hated. I did get a rope, and I was so close to hanging myself until my mom walked in and brought me into a huge hug...
    she told me no matter how bad things in life are going, they'll always get better. it just takes time...
  11. me;hi can i get a pen?
    other student;NO!! i do not want an uglly whore touching my stuff,why dony u look in the trash i mean that is where most ur clothes come from anyway😂😂
    me;😢typical day at school
    later at home

    me;hi mom
    mom;hey sweety how was ur day??make any new friend's here??
    me;yes i did everyone loves me(lie)
    truth;no,everyone hates me for no reason and honestly more people want me to die then live😑
    walks off and goes to bathroom to grab meds.....
    1 hour later.....
    mom;😭😭no😭😭
  12. My Friend At School Told me To Kill Myself.....😭😢😠
  13. i sometimes think i'm alone and in an awful situation but then i remember that i'm not special and no one (excluding my fam... maybe) will remember me if i'm gone
  14. in 7th grade (im in 10th now almost 11th) my best friend attempted to kill herself.i received a video n i walked out of math and ran to her side. although her house door was locked my mom and her parents came as well.she was an hour from dieing. today she is happy and alot better. myself on the other hand am not. i have hidden my depression since my 5th grade year. when we were separated it showed. i wanted to die i tried to die. many times when she was let out we werent allowed to see each other. while she was gone i wrote. her a letter everyday from 7th grade till she came back. her sister. took them home and layed them on her bed for her return. when she came home my letters told her everything. that happened.she showed me this song. november of last year i had a miscarriage and lost my baby. then the guy who supposedly loved me became emotionally abusive. he broke me.i was his perfect little puppet.now that my best friend comes around more she brought back my happiness n someome new who loves me very much stole me away from the abuse but everyday is a new fight everyday is a struggle not to break down and cry. i fight everyday past the bullying and the thoughts in my head. ive been bullied since i was little. and yet. my headphones n boyfriendn bestfriend r the only people i talk to in public. i am still. broken i am still scared but i am a fighter. and i refuse to die down without a fight.
    thats my story.
    whats yours????
  15. just cut again.. not what I wanted
  16. I'm done I can't do this anymore goodbye
  17. i have cuts on my arm and im only 12
  18. If anyone needs to talk, please, please contact me. My insta and snapchat are both xxbutterflybaexx. Contact me.
  19. omg love song
  20. Anyone going through depression or another sitution, HELP each other don't just say someone going through things "is being stupid". Some people in our world today just disgust me.


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